Challenges, Struggles, Losses

Life in cyberspace is more challenging than I'd expected. When someone you think of as a "friend" disappears without much or any explanation, it's painful. You don't have any way to find out what's wrong. You can't offer help. It's a limbo-state. It's happened a time or two recently. Since I live daily with physical challenges and mental stress in what I know of as my "real-world" existence, my cyberpals mean a lot to me. I grieve when they're gone.

So today, along with the stresses of being the "mother of the bride," I'm also dealing with the loss of friendships and just when I feel like I need them most. The saddest part is wanting to be there to help those friends and not knowing how.

It was in that light that I participated in a long phone conversation with an RN from my health plan's heart patient support program, and probably talked her ear off. Then knitted two repeats of my baby afghan.

Finally, agitated, I picked up the triangle lace shawl. I think that was what was most comforting, odd as that sounds. It's such a challenge to concentrate on the chart, the slippery, soft yarn and now, working around the lifeline. And the cyberworld fell away. Till I started this post.

Maybe my missing cyberpals will read this. Maybe I'll hear from them. If not, I wish them peace, health, love. I hope they know how much they enriched my life. I send them warm hugs.